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In 2012 I was diagnosed with thyroid imbalance and adrenal fatigue. Before that, I had survived an eating disorder, chronic dieting, and compulsive exercising and somehow got to a good place... only to find out that I wasn't as healthy as I thought I was.
Caught off guard, I turned to the research I had done on healthy living because I knew I could heal myself. After all, I had done it before. Taking my health into my own hands, I started studying health coaching so that I could learn everything I needed to know about holistic healing, chronic illness, and mind-body medicine.
After a few years of making progress earning certifications in holistic health, integrative nutrition, thyroid health, and transformational coaching, I learned more about all the things I thought I needed to know. The information led to some progress, but I was still suffering.
There was so much judgment it hurt. I had invested so much time, money, and energy in learning, but I still couldn’t apply it. I was struggling to create the relief and freedom I knew was possible.
I was on the verge of another transformation.
Pain and panic had been driving me to seek healing. But, this wasn’t helping me anymore. It was holding me back. Things had to change. I had to surrender for the struggle to end. I knew it from the deepest part of me. Judgment, control, and manipulation were taskmasters and they left no room for compassion, true self-care, and the real acceptance I so longed for. My body was asking me to do something different, but I still couldn’t hear the truth.
I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I was f-ing done.
So, I shook things up. I looked with new eyes and heard with new ears. I experienced new things... and the plateau became a thing of the past. I could suddenly see that the way I was trying to heal myself was rooted in the same energy that got me sick.
It turns out that what I needed was something softer and kinder, yet still effective. Meeting myself with these qualities created a momentum of healing. I was blown away. Hmmm… was I onto something?
Things I had learned were guaranteed to help actually weren't right for my body.
The people I was connecting with weren't right for my future.
Taking care of myself in real ways wasn't just okay, it was fucking required if I wanted to stop the pain and panic cycle.
Slowing down, doing less, and BEING more was medicine for my body and soul.
I needed to go deeper again. I needed to hear what else I knew.
My biography had affected my biology and my story needed to be told and heard.
I was deserving of love and I had to slowly break down my walls to let it in.
I was the healer I was waiting for because I already had everything I needed inside of me.
My body started to respond even more. I wasn't tired all the time. My digestion improved. The pain in my throat started subsiding. I was sleeping better. Anxiety lessened. Weight dropped that my body had been holding onto so tightly.
I even weaned off my thyroid medication… woo hoo!
Day by day, I could feel, see, hear, taste, and sense a new version of myself emerging through every cell of my body.
There were others like me who were stuck in the plateau or uphill climb, trying to heal from a place of panic and getting nowhere fast.
Compassionate excavation is required when major health challenges come. Major health challenges, maybe the second, third or fourth, are invitations.
Healing from a place of force, pushing past the plateau, and mentally contorting to figure out what was wrong with me so I could “fix” myself DID NOT WORK.
True healing happens when your body trusts you and feels relaxed and safe enough to heal. This requires more curiosity, tenderness, compassion, and unconditional love on all levels.
Living in my first home, I feel like I'm right where I'm supposed to be. In tune with the wisdom of my body, I actually love her. I love hearing her, touching her, moving her, and giving her what she requests.
And then, intuitively I knew...
I didn't think getting into my body would be possible, let alone joyful and turned-on. Self-consciousness has faded. Gratefulness and devotion to who I am have taken their place. The path I've walked has been a homecoming like no other.
Being a witness to women like me, like you, who are in the uphill climbs, transcending plateaus, and maybe even ready to find pleasure in their physical experience is indescribable.
Tired all the time?
Disconnected from your body?
Struggling with symptoms and fearful about them
Wishing you had more confidence?
Overwhelmed and don't know how to get out of it?
On high alert most of the time?
Committed to others and ditching yourself in the process?
Let me show you how
Panicked this will never end?
Educated but stuck on how to apply what you know?
Knowing inner work needs to be done for something to change?
Feeling the pull to connect deeper with your spiritual side?
Hopeful even after being hardened by life?
Ready to surrender to something different?
What you’re struggling with now is only part of the story. There is so much more to you and